Value Is ____________?

Lately I`ve been thinking what has a real value for me. What is there that I can rely to as something really valuable to me. I came to a conclusions, value is mortal, it`s delusional, it`s there when we think of it, it`s like a mirage. I know money have no value. No matter how much or how little you have it doesn`t guarantee you happiness or bring you sadness. It`s completely irrelevant and not dependent on it. So where can we find the real values in life? Are they the ones our grandfathers were fighting for? Love, peace and freedom, are they the principal values? Is the definition of each of them stayed the same throughout the centuries? Or did we manage to change them to suit our more modern needs, needs of the society dependent on getting rid of as much privacy as it can. Society who wants to be famous, with the least effort as it`s possible. Did we loose our reasons why? Are we still questioning things that we did question when we were young and stupid. Or are we going backwards in our minds, loosing interest in anything what`s not trivial, what`s not in the "OK!" magazine, what`s not in the news. Where did our values go? When did we loose them? Are we aware of loosing them, and do we want to get them back. Or is it all just a neverending change of mind? If yes, then what is the stability? I wish I could be able to control my mind, to set my mind in the way I want to, but on the other hand, we all live a change, life is changing every day, world is changing every second, and so do we, so do the values. Is there a hope of being yourself all the time, no matter what? Wouldn`t that be a rebellion against the universe? Should we just  let the flow take us, or should we find the way to be the flow. To swim the ocean we have to be able to lose the sigh of the sore and to not panic. But do we really need to swim the ocean? 

Walk the walk

So many people talk the talk, but how many of us walk the walk?
Lately I`ve been thinking how a man can change every minute. Either because he wants to, or because of the world around him, the circumstances. So many times I wanted to stay the same, follow my path, do what I felt the most passionate about. And I did it. I did just about anything to get myself up there. But so many distractions on the way knocked me out of the track. Seems like I just cannot stop to party. It`s like an addiction. I know it`s just killing me, the lifestyle I want to have, and I can have, with the lifestyle that somehow keeps invading my life, like a virus, but with morphine so I don`t feel the pain but happiness. Love is the most powerful and destructible of all. It comes to our lives and changes everything, makes us feel OK no matter what, then when it`s gone comes the fire, pain, the agony... And it`s never lesson learned. Love happens. The real challenge is how you pick yourself up after the fall. Will you manage to not to waste your life, your talents, your passion? I`m trying my best, always seemed to be the strongest, yet now I feel alone, in the room full of people, screaming under the water, loosing air. Where`s my surface? Where`s the shore? I keep looking for one, but maybe it`s not what I am suppose to look for? Maybe I don`t need the shore? Maybe this ocean will convince me to trust it, so I don`t drown.

Life For Granted

There is so many things in life, overall, that we take for granted. Life is something that we have never asked for, our life, it has been given to us with hope that one day we will make a difference, that we will change the future. This is the chance to make the most of it, every second is a new one, another chance. No one is telling you, you have to live your life, it seems like it`s a set up, and you are just fed up. There`s nothing that could describe life as good as it does itself. This is the only chance to be happy. To be who you are, what you want, who you want to be. This is it. And still so many of us cry every night. Still so many of us don`t want to pick themselves up from the ground after the fall. Pain is needed, it makes you notice the happiness, it makes you see the difference between them two. It`s all a lesson that we have to learn. It`s all how you make it. It`s all your own.